“Oh, Lord, I know it is not within the power of man to map his life and plan his course.” – Jeremiah 10:2
I could have never mapped out all of the intricate details of my life nor had the strength in myself alone to live the ups and the downs. It has taken a lifetime for me to begin to fully grasp and appreciate that the Master has designed every detail of the canvas of my life. With this understanding comes the perfect peace that all things do work out for the good for those that know and love Him.
The Heavenly Father continues to paint on my life’s canvas. He is working on a masterpiece and has been working on it since the day of my birth, perfecting every detail accordingly to His master plan that was designed for me from before the foundation of time.
He has made use of various brushes, textures, and colors to bring forth His creation in me. From the beginning He allowed deafness to overtake me. Those colors reflected confusion and separation as laughter and ridicule overtook the child that talked funny. Then there was the gray storm clouds of sexual abuse as a child from a close family friend.
He created the bright colors of the joy of triumph as a champion skater to soften the agony of defeat in my days as a failure in my academics. He elevated me in my professional role at the FBI thus giving the world the TV series, Sue Thomas: FBEye. In those days it was not all that it appeared to be. Although I was successful at the FBI, in my spiritual life I was a miserable fugitive, wanted and pursued by God.
My faith in His Divine Plan went even deeper on the night of December 1st, 2017 when the Master while at work painting my life’s canvas, took one stroke of His brush and created a stroke in my cerebellum. In one instant my life changed as I knew it. I was unable to walk and swallow. I couldn’t even sit up on my own but kept falling to the right side. My precious eyesight was affected with severe double vision. By one stroke of the Master’s hand my life took on a new dimension and I had to let go of my own ideas and trust His hand that He always knows what is best for me. I experienced first hand those words of Jeremiah, when he wrote, “it is not within my power to map my life nor to plan my course.”
In the last 2 months I have been recovering. I spent two weeks in the hospital, and then had home visits from the physical therapist. With physical therapy I am regaining my strength and re-learning how to walk. I can now climb fourteen stairs in my home with assistance. My throat and tongue muscles have slowly come back, and I can enjoy a meal and eat regular food again, although it is a slow process. Something I marvel at is that I did not lose my speech. To me this is so profound. It took many years for me to learn to speak, and in the stroke of a second it could have been lost. In God’s goodness and mercy He did not take from me my Gift from God and my Gift to God, my ability to speak. Since that day of the stroke of His hand, He has even given me 6 speaking appointments this spring, to proclaim Him and to make Him known!!!
“For I know the plans that I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you, not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29: 11-13
What an exciting walk it is with the Master! He has formed each of us in our mother’s womb and designed our lives before the foundation of time. Each and every minute is safely in His hands with the purpose always of leading us back to Him. He will use each situation to reveal Himself to us that we may grow in understanding and wisdom. This wisdom and understanding of Himself is His prosperity to us – such knowledge is wealth untold!
This latest stroke by the Master’s hand is teaching me to walk anew in my faith and understanding of Him. Now I ask you, what situation are you facing, what crisis is in your life, that He has painted on your canvas today to bring you to Him in a deeper way? Remember, all things are from Him, with Him and in Him. As He was in the beginning, now and ever shall be, world without end, AMEN!
Sue, my prayers are with you. I was wondering about you while I watch the last of the Sue Thomas F. B. Eye show that I recently discovered on PureFlix. I, too, have experienced the Master’s Hand through illnesses which have helped me draw closer to Him. God bless you, Sister.
Hi Sue, my family is praying for you. You are an inspiration! My daughter in particular just wishes there were more TV episodes.
I nominated your blog for the Sunshine Blogger Award:
We will be praying.
Sue, your story is never ending and I love the fact that you keep me/us all informed as to how you are doing. God always has our best interest at heart, and each time I read from you I wonder what wonders God is up to now. Knowing that He loves each and everyone of us is such a comfort. Looking forward to seeing you, Deb and Rodney come Spring. Right now you had better have snowshoes to reach your cabin, but God will bring the glorious flowers and berries and green grass right on time. Blessings to all of you
Dear Sue, I have been wondering how you were doing so I appreciate this update. Your faith and courage in spite of difficulties shines as an example to us all! I love you dearly and pray for you, my friend.
Four years ago I was in a car accident- I was hit by a semi on the drivers side door and was not expected to live. It was 8 months until I was able to live back at home, but I’m back there now and the Lord has guided me to be able to go back to college. I’m so grateful for that, even though many things are more difficult for me than for others. I have a traumatic brain injury and had had the need to relearn to walk, talk, eat, etc. So whenever I get stressed about all the trials I’m faced with everyday, I praise the Lord I’m still here at all! Sue Thomas, your story has been an inspiration to me greater than you could ever know throughout this difficult time. So thank you for being such a strong woman, a model for us all!
What a testimony of your life, and the Lord’s Hand in every piece of it! I praise God that you are indeed learning to progressively KNOW HIM through all that has happened in your life, and pray that I, too, will be faithful as things that seem tragic and bitter come, as come they will into all our lives. May God give us His mind and grace that, as we are squeezed and poured “from vessel onto vessel”, we will become sweeter and more like Him Whom we follow! Much love
Wow, Sue, that’s rough! So sorry you have had to go through all that. But God does know how strong you are, he obviously knew you could take it and come back with renewed vigor, and an every increasing faith in his ongoing work in and through your life! You are one of those “noble vessels” spoken of in scripture, powerfully used by the Lord for his work. May God bless you and keep you in his care and his never ending love! – Blessings and Love, Judy
I have been praying for a mentor and God brought me one in such an unusual and unexpected place. But I have found that is how God always works. I never heard of Sue Thomas before now. But God’s timing is best. Thank you for demonstrating such strong faith.